So, like most people who go into Communication Disorders, like most of my graduate school class, and probably most of my colleagues, I am a bit of a Type A personality. I do not like to make mistakes. Even more than not liking to make them, I really hate to admit them and have to tell other people about them. Who does?
And recently, I made one. Kind of a big one. It was something I probably could have ignored, and it may not have come up again. But I would have felt guilty. So I called my supervisor, and we dealt with it. As I lamented the fact that now I had made a mistake and felt horrible about it, Phil of Project SLP said something to me on Twitter that made a lot of sense–He said that your Clinical Fellowship Year is “all about having a safe place to make mistakes.”
And as much as I hate it, he’s right. I am still a newbie. As much as I’d like to be a completely competent professional, that takes time. And is why there is a Clinical Fellowship Year. As ASHA states, a Clinical Fellowship Year is “a transition between being a student and being an independent provider of clinical services…”
So instead of beating myself up and feeling guilty, I am choosing to take this incident, learn from it, and move on. To hopefully being a more competent, independent practitioner. And if (when) I do mess up again, I know who to go to. Phil is the best encourager.